AprilAthena7's giveaway!!

Doubt anyone would see this post.. :[ But! AprilAthena7 is hosting a very big giveaway! So! You should check it out! :)

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Chuc Mung Nam Moi!!

Happy Chinese Lunar New Year!! o-o;;

Let you all be healthy, have fun, get good money, find love, be lucky and what not. :)

And I know realized.. that it's 14 past 12 in the morning =__= but whatever :'D

Oh, You..

Oh, you. You rascal...

Yes. You. You're a rascal. Life seems to be like that lately. Thought since switching my major that I'm happy and confident with my choice. Though I know I need to work hard to improve my artistic abilities since I put it on the back burner in high school.

The usual call to the parents is something I do once a day. Weekends I let them call me. (lol). Anyway. The call to the father was perfect and fine, nothing stressful it was normal. The call to them mother, I don't know how it started but it ended up talking about my major, money, loans, future, financial issues. That all went down hill for me. I started to cry but I had to hold it back and calm down because my roommate was in the room when I was talking to my mum. I understand that she's concerned about me. Since I went from a science major to an art major. Asked me if I'm able to make enough money with all the loans and how much school costs.

Ok let me tell you this. College is expensive as hell. All students will be welcomed into the world after graduation with a big debt tailing behind them. They're lucky if they get it paid without loans. For me I'm half lucky. My parents do support me and stuff. But I do have loans of my own. It's because I decided to attend a college 1.5 hrs away from home. I asked everybody and told me to come here and to experience college, and most of my friends were attending here as well. All is good. I like it, certain things that I don't like about this place. But it's manageable. Hate the dorms though. And there are things that I wished I could redo again. Because it's causing me stress, anxiety, and borderline depression. Be sure of what you really want to pursue because it'll be much easier on you mentally and emotionally.

I switched majors because I couldn't concentrate in my science classes. I attend class, lab, etc. But when it came to the midterms and exams. I just couldn't focus myself to study it. Yeah yeah. It's my fault that I didn't study enough for me to think that way. Even in high school I was the same way. I was really happy with my major I was just going through it like I did high school just went with the flow not really thinking about it. But I decided to go art major because it was my 2nd choice for my major. Even though financial it won't be making much money compared to being a science major, but I know I'll be much happier with it. Than doing something I just have no passion for, I felt that I needed to be a science major and become some sort of doctor. You know why? Cause I'm Asian, and I felt obligated to my parents to become something that has some worth in the medical field.

I should have listened to my own voice, but I guess when I was deciding what I wanted to do, that my voice was being overpowered by what my parents suggested and want for me. Because I felt OBLIGATED to do so. They told me to do whatever I wanted as long as I'm happy, and to pick something for myself and not what they want, even though they still like their suggestions. I just want to cry just thinking about it.

But my mum jjust stressed me out so much talking about money, loans, and shit a-like. And kept asking me if what I wanted to do makes enough money for me to pay it off. Ugh. Just getting to this part again just makes me want to go violent. I just. I'm stopping ehre because I can't go any further becuase I'll just blow up. I'm on the urge of crying. Oh look I wrote an essay.

Update to myself.. hah

2011..... Why hello....

2010.... wasn't so great academic wise.. ^^;; so goodbye..

I have good news!! After so much depression/anxiety from school!!! I decided to change my major FINALLY. To something that actually interests me. I originally was going for General Science with Physicians assistant option. Stuff is hard!! And I really didn't like my advisor... she was not so nice... After an advisor meeting with her, came out super depressed about myself. Change to undeclared winter term.. Loved that advisor oh my gosh.. advisor meeting with her I came out quite happy... Then *drum rolls* tada!! you're looking at an applied arts student!! going for graphic design option~...

It sounds quite scary, because graphic design is really really(x9999) hard to get into they only accept.. I believe 20 stupids out of the 40 that signed up for the portfolio review class. And if you don't get accepted you have to try again NEXT FALL... :| That's the only scary thing... I mean If I don't get it junior year... then I have to try senior year which means I might need to do 1 more year of college. To me. I don't mind but my parents really don't want that.. Since they were apprehensive about me changing to an art degree in the first place.

They told me that I should do something that interests me. Well here it is.. Scary as hell.. Ah late for class... *skips out*